Where am i going...
[He is who he said He is...]
I am sooo BLESSED by Him. i am not going into details. but God is awesome (i kept using this word cuz i cannot find a better word to describe Him)!! i prayed and the prayer was answered in five minutes. He saved my butt every freaking single time!!! You can tell me that it is coincidence, but coincident doesn’t happen that often ya kno. Praise God.
[I don't understand....]
I think i am going back to the “I-think-she-is-better-than-me” state. I needa stop thinking. cuz it is not true. even if it is. i shouldnt be comparing. i am His creation, unique in my own way. but, theses thoughts are looping in my brain again and again. I don’t understand. why is it still there after all these years? I thought I already let go. or Maybe i didn’t? Maybe deep in my heart, I don’t want to.
My guy friends always tell me that girls are hard to understand. I agree, cuz even I cannot figure myself out and i got confuse when i tried to dig deeper into my complex brain. I don’t know where this is going and i don’t know how to end this thing….
but i need to stop comparing myself to her pictures. stop trying to look like her.
Tell me how.
