[01.29.09]He is good….He is good…He is good to me…

I don’t know if it is because of the sickness, the horrible ochem midterm, the pressure of the upcoming friday physics quiz, or just the feeling of being occupied 24/7……I felt extremely down and so out of it yesterday. During large group, the worship is good, the speaker is even better, but…I am not really absorbing anything. Everything is happening around me, without me being part of it. I feel like crying but i have no good reason to cry.

Afterwards, I wanted to talk to someone, but everyone seems so busy talking to their friends. They seems so happy that I do not want to disturb their happiness with my unexplainable sadness. I went though every single number on my phone, hoping to find someone to call…nothing…I wanted to walk in the darkness alone. I don’t know, but sometimes, i really enjoyed walking aimlessly in a dark cold night….

now all i am telling myself is that….

He is good…He is good…He is good…He is good to me.

[His love song to me]

I know that life seems hard, cruel and unkind
A lonesome journey with questions in your mind
I’ll hold your weary hand as you walk down the road
Remember you’re never alone

Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want someone
To reach out and touch you
With a love that is strong
Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want a friend
To chase away the clouds
and help the sun shine again
I will be that friend

If I could have one wish this I would pray
A heavenly miracle, your pain to drift away
So I’ll keep on prayin’ until that day comes
Remember that I’ll be the one

Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want someone
To reach out and touch you
With a love that is strong
Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want a friend
To chase away the clouds and help the sun shine again
I will be that friend

I’ll give you strength in times you’re feeling weak
I’ll give you hope and help you to believe