我想回家…

So…my computer crashed 5 days ago right when i thought that my life is getting better. my hard drive died on me for no reason. apple wasn’t able to retrieve anything because the hard drive is too damaged. if i really want my data back, i need to pay 1,600 buks. yeah, story of my life. series of unfortunate events.

I felt drained, physically and spiritually. one thing after another, doesn’t seem like there is an end to this. I am usually pretty optimistic and hopeful, but i am not so sure about this time. I want to go home. For the first time in my life, i feel like i want to run away from all these so badly. 

i prayed, prayed that He will give me strength to go through all these. i hope, that my heart is open to receive it from Him.

Now, i am still praying, still trying to listen, and still waiting….

i really don’t know how long this wait can be. but i pray that it will come soon.