Yesterday was lot of fun. I slept so late, but still woke up the time i usually did…maybe even earlier. For same random, but good, reason, I have this urge to read the Bible. John 18:25-27. Peter’s Second and Third Denials. Taking some time, just look into the words. “well, it doesn’t really apply to me,” I thought to myself. Its like one of those, just another day, another passage, and I am reading Bible cuz its good for me kinda feeling: got nothing out of it. I mean, if people do ask me these days, “are you Jesus’ disciples?” i would yell out a big YES with no hesitation. Here in America, I don’t feel the pressure of being persecuted or just anything negative when I tell people about God and the whole Christianity thing. Then it suddenly hit me. “What does it mean by denying Jesus?” It cannot be just about saying the words: “I am not [one of his disciples].” Thinking back to the whole idea of Christianity as a life style not religion, “Can we deny Jesus in our action?” In other words, “are you acting like a Christian when you call yourself one?” I feel convicted.
This is something i definitely need to work on, to live more like a REAL Christian. “Man, its hard!” I said to myself. So I prayed to Him, seek His help. I thank Him for reminding me that I need to live a more Christian life. Then, I ask for strength and determination. I ask Him to guard my heart that I will not fall into temptations.
“Jesus, I want to be more like you. I want to have a life style that glorifies you. so, mold me. Make me the way you want me to be. May my personal, worldly desire will not take over your perfect plan for me. You know what is the best for me, and i place my trust in your plan.”
