How He answered me.

“²⁰I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. ²¹A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. ²²So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. ²³In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. ²⁴Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.”

John 16:20-24

[12.28.08] Blessed

Where am i going...

                                                           [He is who he said He is...]

I am sooo BLESSED by Him. i am not going into details. but God is awesome (i kept using this word cuz i cannot find a better word to describe Him)!! i prayed and the prayer was answered in five minutes. He saved my butt every freaking single time!!! You can tell me that it is coincidence, but coincident doesn’t happen that often ya kno. Praise God.

                                                             [I don't understand....]

I think i am going back to the “I-think-she-is-better-than-me” state. I needa stop thinking. cuz it is not true. even if it is. i shouldnt be comparing. i am His creation, unique in my own way. but, theses thoughts are looping in my brain again and again. I don’t understand. why is it still there after all these years? I thought I already let go. or Maybe i didn’t? Maybe deep in my heart, I don’t want to. 

My guy friends always tell me that girls are hard to understand. I agree, cuz even I cannot figure myself out and i got confuse when i tried to dig deeper into my complex brain. I don’t know where this is going and i don’t know how to end this thing….

but i need to stop comparing myself to her pictures. stop trying to look like her.

Tell me how.